Finally , I hv "killed" 4 subjects.

It can't say that I did bad ,actually I think I have done a pretty good job.

However, only can reach my own goal is not enough.

I hate being nervous but I can't help.

Take Geography exam for example , I think I can at least get 100 marks ( total marks is 119) . It is a good marks , but how if 100 is much lower than others?!

I keep thinking of this questions. With no doubt , this questions or this kind of unease pushes me to do better.

 Though I really really dont wanna compre with others , the only thing makes you get the recommendation is our marks . It makes me sick!!!

no matter how hard I try , it seems like my goal is still so far-away that I will never reach.

I am  collasped.